Well, once again it's been forever and a half since I've actually posted anything.

It is two months before my graduation out of high school. I'm excited but also saddened to know that I'll be leaving most of my friends behind before I know it. I'm leaving before everyone else pretty much... And it saddens me greatly. And the funny thing is, it's not even for college. It's because of decisions I couldn't control. But besides that... I'm breathing as one of my friends would say. My senior year... how could I reflect on it? It's been pretty much an emotional hell. Sounds like fun, right? There are times I just want to give up and others where I know I must overcome anything I face.. but I'm growing tired of this quickly. I'm also wondering how stupid I must be at times. And it may not be my fault exactly, because some don't understand the fullness of a given situation.

I also look at people at lot differently now.. Which I don't see as a good thing now either. I grow tired also of drama and stupidity among people... Which is no longer a good thing either. I still have my patience, thank god, so I am able to hold my tongue most of time. I also have become more observant and less expressive in most situations. It makes life easier if you just don't have an opinion, or at least you keep it to yourself anyways. Because people can't understand that it's alright to agree that you DISAGREE. Get that through your heads...

I also am wondering how I'm going to live without certain people in my life, and how I may never fully thank them for being in my life, or how I truly feel towards some of them. But that comes from being stupid and a teenager I guess. We can't fully comprehend maturity and the thought of everything being alright if you say something that makes you completely vulnerable. But hell, that's life.